I Need to Lose Weight

I am so fucking fat. I disgust myself. Summer is in 2 months and I'm expected to go to Florida with my friends? Yeah right. I'm going to look like a fat cow next to them.

I am so sick of feeling like this. Of feeling worthless. Of feeling like I'm not good enough.

If I could just be skinny everything would be so much better... I just know it. I'm going to stop at nothing to be skinny again. I need to drop at least 40 lbs by the middle of May. I think I can do it. I've lost weight before, so I know I can do it again. I'll be skinny and I can finally be happy again.