Ugh

I don't know if any of you have ever had one of those moments where you're fine and then all of a sudden you're just hit with depression, but it sucks.

I was literally just sitting here and all of a sudden it's like my chest is being crushed. The depression also brought on a panic attack so that's fun. I don't think I'll be able to go to school tomorrow because I can already sense that I won't be able to get out of bed.

But my mom will be so mad. She won't let me see anyone over the weekend, she'll yell at me. I'm worried about that. I don't know if it'd be worth it to sit in bed all day and try to just give myself a day or just get through the day and just cry whenever something goes to shit.

I honestly am not sure what I'm gonna do.

Although I do know I should probably go to sleep, because I'm hella numb and therefore I'm making shit decisions and I'm being a huge bitch to a friend who normally I would feel bad about saying things to, but because I can't feel anything right now I don't feel bad, just relieved, because I was done with his shit for a minute there.

Ye. Depression perks, ammi right? ;-;