Random Bull

Yes, there are times when I think I would be happier with my life if I had someone to lean on, besides my friends. I know that I annoy my friends when I'm always there, I know that I depend on them a little too much. But I honestly don't know where I would be in life right now without them. I probably would have moved to Nevada with my parents and became even more depressed than I am.

But back to someone to lean on in life. As much as I tell people and try to tell myself that I don't want a relationship, it's always been something that I wanted. I've never had a boyfriend, someone who liked me for me and wanted to be with me. And I'm 20 fucking years old for heavens sake. Of course I have had my share of crushes and false love, but none like this one right now. He's honestly someone I can talk to all day about nothing and it's still the best convo I had all day. He's the only person I've ever been this straight up about my feelings to and it scares me.