Afraid of Disappointing

I'm terrified of disappointing the people around me, even over the smallest things. It really doesn't help that I already feel like a bad person because I'm too fat or I don't talk to enough people, but when you throw school work in their to it just becomes so overwhelming. I've got to put in the effort for my teachers, I have to take part in things with my fellow students, plus I have to get good grades for my parents. I once had a breakdown in my 7th grade classroom when class was let out because I hadn't gone to a detention I got for not doing something. the only reason I didn't go was because I didn't want my mom to be ashamed of me so I never got her to sign the slip. I'm always feeling like I have to different things to please different people and I'm honestly just so tired of it and it's taking an emotional toll on me.
April 25th, 2014 at 05:50am