How to Stress Over a Late Period.

I haven't been very active at all because the end of school + senior activities + stress has taken up all my free time. I'm out of school now but not very active because my pregnancy scare is getting really bad. It's stressing me out for real. I haven't stopped worrying about it since like three weeks ago.

I should've gotten my period yesterday, but it's late. My period is irregular I guess because I was checking my period app and I was shocked to see sometimes my cycle is 24 days long, or 28, or 26. It changes like the weather. I really thought I had a pretty solid cycle that never changed. Guess not.

Buuuuut I woke up this morning determined to buy a pregnancy test. I've been putting it off. I waited for my parents to leave the house before I started getting ready. Then I realized my mom had my keys, so I would have to leave the house unlocked and walk as fast as I could to the grocery store. I get to the store in twenty minutes, sweating and looking like crap because I'm not wearin makeup and my hair is all over the place. I didn't even shower. I slapped those pregnancy tests on the conveyor belt and got eyed by the nervous Asian man in front of me. I don't care. I have no shame.

YES, WORLD, I'M SEVENTEEN AND GOING THROUGH MY NINE HUNDRETH PREGNANCY SCARE.

But anyway I got two tests for $10 and took one as soon as I got home. I hadn't gone to the bathroom that morning so I was almost crying when I saw the toilet. The test came out negative, and it's an early detection test up to five days before a missed period, so my faith in it is about 75%.

So now I play the waiting game some more and try to stay calm.

My boyfriend is saying my period is late because I've been stressed but I don't really feel like I've been stressing out. He says that he can tell though because for the past month I've been really irritated and getting headaches from loud noises and I "always run everywhere".

I guess. This is just weird though because even in my worst stress moments where I've been throwing up from anxiety, I still got my period on time.

But my boyfriend says this time is much worst and "trust me, you're super stressed out because you've been pissing me off with your attitude for the past month and that's how I know."

I've never wanted my period so bad. I need to relax.