It's Been Awhile, so Here's Some Updates.

Let's see, where should I begin? I suppose I'll start when I was still in school, so here we go.

I'm hardly on Mibba anymore, especially since I got s job at Taco Bell in January. Fun, right? But for real, it isn't too bad of a job, and it really is easy. But since working there, I haven't had much time for Mibba and anything else. Between being in school at the time, having friends and a boyfriend, my time was stretched to the max.

Then, it was also my senior year. Teachers were assigning more and more as it neared the end of the school year so that also really slowed my time on here. And finally on May 18th, I graduated from high school. It was a good time, but also really sad. A lot of my friends are going away to college, and I'm still going to be here, probably working at Taco Bell. I feel like kind of a loser, considering I really don't plan on going to college and actually making something of myself, while all my friends are doing it. I really had planned on going but then suddenly it just hit me.

I didn't want to go.

I felt so bad, because my mom helped my fill out all of these financial aid things, and stuff for scholarships. But it just dawned on me that I wouldn't really be happy going, so I'm not. That doesn't make me a failure, right? I keep getting upset that I am such a loser and I'm not going to college... I really don't want anybody to think I'm a loser. Hell, I still tell my co-workers I'm going to college in the fall. What happens when fall rolls around and look at me, I'm not in college.

God, what a mess this is.

But on the plus side, me and my boyfriend are talking about marriage. He actually took me ring shopping a few days ago, and told me to pick out my favorites. But, he told me I won't get to know which one or when he's proposing. I know it's going to happen, I just don't know when. And that thought is really exciting me.

Also, I turn 18 in less than a month. Soo excited, but scared at the same time. Is that normal?

Okay, now that I have written more than I ever have on one of these things, I'm thinking that I am going to lurk around Mibba some more before finally retiring to bed, seeing as it is 4 in the morning.