Yep. Along with the ten years it takes for my alerts to dismiss and finally go away. I'm sure if I tried to delete stuff on here, it would take another 20 years. It all just really sucks. Sometimes I wonder if this site will ever be back up and running even half right like it use to. But it's free so I guess I can't really complain now can I?
I'd like to state that I'm wrong about everything in life and that I know nothing at all. Just saying. Everything that I experience is just some make believe story I made up. I mean....isn't that what everyone wanted to hear? What's the point of this. I don't even know or care anymore. I'm one cynical gal. At least I admitted it. Maybe I've been driven to that point by people but regardless, that's basically where I'm at right now. Cynical.
I've had a decent day regardless of this bullshit. I laughed for like two hours at work today because my guy friends worked today. I'll say this again even though I'm sure someone will twist my words like they always love to do but.....I get along better with guys. Plain and simple. I'm not trying to be prejudice against my own gender at all, it's just proven fact in my life that I can get along better with males. And no, it's nothing to do with anything sexual at all.
I can walk up to a guy and just have a free flowing conversation right away. We laugh. We talk about video games, cars, guy movies and what not without forced effort. With girls, I have to constantly WORK at a conversation. Like almost with every girl. I feel I have to tread lightly with what I say because 1.Some girls are sensitive. 2. A lot of girls don't like talking about blunt things like I do.
Girls are also very competitive it seems. I dunno. I don't try not to get along with them, it's just kind of this weird awkwardness there. Now that doesn't mean I've never had close female friends. I have had a few VERY close female friends where we got along naturally without a lot of drama. I just......I dunno sometimes I think I should have been born a guy. It seems like it would be easier at times. But yes, these are just my opinions and I'm sure they'll be used against me like usual. Oh well. I'm happy at least my job is going good for now. No drama there right now. I actually find myself just wanting to be at work at times. It's strange.
I feel kind of flattered because two guys liked me in THAT way in the past year. It kind of blows my mind because I'm this girl who is all not confident and feels like a big overweight barn. It just shocks me when guys besides my husband like me in that manner. And I mean....it has to be my personality I think because while I'm not completely ugly as a person, I'm not the hottest either. I'm sure these guys could find much physically better looking and fit girls than me. I dunno. I just enjoy making people laugh because it makes me feel like I'm worth something.
I guess this is all for now. I'm gonna get to work on the treats I owe for my giveaway and just continue to listen to music in hopes I get out of this cynical fucking mood. Guess I'm just fed up with everything and nothing at all.