Virginia Beach

I can't draw, can't sing, can't focus. But I can write a mess of thoughts that don't make sense and make myself feel crazy. I can re-think everything over and over again.

Is this common? Is this ok?

I am genuinely confused.

I want to draw vivid pictures of what I see but all that comes out is blotchy scribbles. So I have to write about it. About 5 am dark, damp mornings, driving in a black car. You're the first one in line to get tea while I watch the fire pit from the car outside. The radio repeats the same 15 songs for the next 12 hours. The sun just appears like that, in one moment. Almost in the blink of an eye.

I just feel like I ruined it all. It won't be the same. It can't be, can it? This sucks.