I ***ing Hate This.

I don't get it. I really, really don't.
Do you ever feel like someone hates you, and you have no idea why?
Well if you have then you know exactly what I'm feeling right now.

I fucking hate this.
I fucking hate him.
I have no idea what I did to make him hate me.

My stupid father.
I just feel like screaming everytime i call him "father" actually saying that he's related to me!
I just hate him so much right now.

I never did anything to him, never!
And he's horrible to me.

He's fine to my brother.
If he does something wrong, it's okay! No big deal, right?

But when Adele does something wrong... even when she does nothing wrong, it's a whole nother story.
He yells at me, ignores me, favors my brother.

And when I tell him how I'm feeling, asking him why he makes me feel unloved, he just ignores me and starts talking to my brother.

I feel usless, unwanted, unloved, hated. He makes me feel like the worst daughter in the world when I try to be nice to him and my brother.
God, I can't even stand being in the same room with him now without wanting to hurt someone!

And I just have no idea why this is. I just want him to tell me what I ever did wrong!

I'm probably overreacting right now but he's making me want to fucking kill someone.... kill myself! I really want to get away from him, and the only thing I can think of is hurting myself, again! I know I need to stop, I haven't done anything in a while, but now I've been wanting to just end it all, and get away from him.

Sorry if this is so... depressing, or whatever.... i just needed to get it off my chest. And I need to talk to someone... anyone.