This is indeed not a suicidal rant where Im going to kill myself right after Im done this so no need to give me those 'Dont kill yourself speeches.'
So yeah, I hate myself.
I find no point in my life really.
What keeping me alive lately is the effect on some people if I actually died.
My best friends; Mahil,Lucy,Henna,Phi Au, and Tyler.
Whom I miss so very much...
But really would it be much of a difference if I lived?
And how would I feel?
Under 6 feet of dirt and rotting away in peace.
How would I feel?
I wouldnt have to hate myself so much on everything I do.
I would never loathe myself again for doing something I wish I hadnt done.
I wouldnt have to love something I shouldnt love.
But what can I do?
I do not have the gut to kill myself nor do I have the will power to.
So see you later my friends.
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