I Can't Do It

I can't but I have to the writing all of it. It's all about him it's years of writing I need to get rid of it I need to so I won't have to read it . How do I do this I can't I just need to but it's to hard it shouldn't be he hurt me he cheated and he manipulates me he has emotionally wrecked me it took me months to not feel sad anymore I don't want him but he keeps contacting me even if I block him . It's hard but it's been a year since he left me for her he moved on I have made peace with the fact I will never have him bit I wrote a lot about him I have a lot of blogs that ate about him I need to delete them all because once I've done that then I know he is gone for sure it isn't easy you know I try so hard to be happy I look at the writing and then I can't press delete but I can I need to and I will I just need to make sure it's what I want and it is .by next year it will all be gone next year will be a fresh start and I can't wait . I know I'm doing the right thing by deleting it I know I am .