I'm kinda sad.... but kinda happy... and really confused!

Well, first off i'm kinda sad cause today is my mom's birthday and if you didn't know she's dead.... so i'm upset cause i miss her a lot, and i didn't get to go visit her grave cause i have too much shit to do today, and i probably won't be able to go visit her for a while... i'm really upset... and i miss her a lot

but i'm kinda happy cause one of my bestest friends called me today and we talked for like 3 hours and i was laughing soooo hard the whole time!! and i haven't laughed like that in god knows how long!! pulse(sp??) my friends b-day was yesterday so we hung out and were walking around her town like idiots with a few of my other friends, and tomorrow is my other friends b-day party so lots of people are gonna be ther and it'll be fun!!!

and i'm really confused cause of my stupid boyfriend!! actually i don't even know if he's my boyfriend anymore!! cause my "friend" (who likes my boyfriend) apparently was telling everyone that i was telling girls at my new school (who are friends with my "friend" ) that i didn't have a boyfriend... when i never said that! and so everytime i talk to him he's like "do you have a boyfriend?? who's your boyfriend" and shit like that and i have no idea why he doesn't trust me! beacuase i told him AND everyone else that i NEVER SAID THAT!!! and my friends at my new school even told him that i said i had a boyfriend. and he still keeps asking me!! he's starting to bug me!! and just now i was talking to him and he said:

Patrick: so do u have a bf
me: what do u mean?
Patrick: do u have a boy friend
me: um... idk do you still like me???

and now he's ignoring me and won't answer!!!! idk what i did!!!!!but i still like him, and i miss him a LOT cause we go to different schools and i hardly ever see him!! gerrrr i have no idea what i should do!!!!!!

well that pretty much sums up my crappy life as of now... OH and i got in another fight with my dad today... blahhhh!! anyone wanna talk?? i'm really bored!!

i hope you people's lives are better than mine.

p.s. and now he just signed off without saying anything!!! gerrr!!!!!