^ Sup wid dat!? I'm so lost ;;_;;
In other news; My internet provider told me that my internet's being suspended on Friday (tomorrow is Thurs for me), so I'm not sure if I'll be on for much longer. We'll just have to see. Also just got my powerbill, that ain't great either. Thanks to my boss not paying me, I can't pay anything towards them - So that's just...excellent. Also, special thanks to the government welfare system that ignored us and told us we were fine. Yeah, of course we are. Ugh.
I don't really know what to do anymore Mibba. I tried. I got a job, I tried to find my partner one. I sold off almost everything I own, I've already borrowed too much money and the government just told us to stuff off and it'd take weeks for them to help us anyway now (since they stuffed us around so bad, they wouldnt even take our application). My rent's overdue as well. I don't know what to do. I tried doing this the 'right' way but I seriously miss being classed as a criminal. At least when I shoplifted I could feed my family, now it's an everyday struggle. It isnt worth it. This sucks.
Worst part is, I can't talk to anyone about it. My boyfriend feels like he isnt a man because he cant find a job, I have little friends and the one's I do have are self absorbed and don't care, and I can't even talk to my mother because she always thinks I want something from her.
I just don't know anymore guys...I don't know.
So if I don't come back for a while - You know why. I'm not dead or anything, just floating down shit stream without a paddle.