Academic Suspension

I got a notification yesterday from my community college that I've been placed on academic suspension for this upcoming semester. I might not be going back to the community college this fall, but I doubt that the university I applied to will like that I decided halfway through the Spring semester to stop going to five classes.

I don't know what's gotten into me. I was a honor student last fall, and now I'm lucky that I still have any financial aid at all. I wasn't even upset or anything; I was just like "God, I hope that I can reach the mail before Mom does if they send out a letter about this."

If I want to be quite honest with myself (more so with my parents), I really am tired with school. I've worried myself into so many anxiety attacks about college and my future that at this point I don't care anymore. It's not like I really know what the hell I'm doing with my life, anyways. But if I told my parents that I would never hear the end of it. Just mentioning that to my almost-boyfriend is enough to start a debate, except he doesn't have a leg to stand on since he stopped going to college last year.

I just....I don't know.