Bulimia Recovery

I'm having a hard time in recovery tonight.

I quit purging almost a month ago.

I'm having a tough time tonight.

I know a month isn't that long, but for me it's the longest that I've gone without purging since I first started.

I know a month isn't that long, so I don't know if I should feel proud of myself.

I have never gone this long without purging before, so I'm terrified to feel proud of myself.

I feel like I have to be clean a year in order for me to feel proud.

I want to purge but I know if I do, I'll feel guilty.

I'm trying so hard to recover.

I quit purging and cutting both cold turkey and both on the same day and it's the hardest thing that I've ever done.