I Hate This

There's this guy. He's my best friend's best friend. He added me on snapchat maybe a year ago and we've snapped back and forth. He's handsome, and my friend always mention good things about him. He seems like a really nice and funny guy. The kind I would fall for.

I've been having this huge crush on him for ages now. I have never met him in person, so I can't say I like him. But I feel that i would totally fall for him if I ever met him and got to know him more personally.

So, about a year ago I thought of asking him to hang out with me. But I was too much of a coward, so I never did. I wanted to hang out with him because I was crushing on him and I would like to know him better. Today, I regret that I never asked so much. Now he has a girlfriend so it's too late.

I'm not saying we would be together if I ever hung out with him, but I would be closer to him than I am now. This regret is just bothering me so much right now, and I don't even know why. This is like the first time I cry over a guy for four years.

I don't know what to do. I can't do anything because he has a girlfriend, and I'm not that much of a bitch. I just wanted to rant out because I'm feeling so down right now.