Who Am I?

I honestly used to think I was a pretty good person until I was told I’m not. I thought I was the only one who criticized me so harshly but again, I’m not. This has really fucked with me though. I’m scared to speak or do things… I can’t be. I don’t know how to be myself, I’m very unsure of my every move. I think one thing and it’s wrong. Everything I say, do, or think is absolutely incorrect. Then I’m told I’m not myself anymore.
I didn’t know I changed.

I’m not even happy, I’ll try to be but I’m just genuinely not. Then I get verbally punished for not having the right emotions or reactions to different things. I’m so very confused.

Do I need to be “fixed”?
I fear the day I lose because I’m not how I’m supposed to be.

But this is how I see it... maybe I am in the wrong.