My eyelids have been heavy with the promise of tears most of today. I've been awake since sometime early yesterday morning and spoke to J last night. Its been over two weeks since I've seen him, which is the longest we've gone without seeing each other since we met. And I knew this would happen. That's what happens when you break up. But I just have this sinking feeling that I'm never getting past this.
Our relationship started out like a fairytale. Everything was perfect. And even in the end, the only problem was time. There just wasn't enough time. And I miss him so bad that I just want time to stop. Now it feels like there's too much time. The all nighters doing homework are longer alone. The days of exams and teaching and traffic are all so much longer when the person you love isn't there to hold you anymore.
There's so much more that I want to say, so many more things I'm feeling that I could try to say poetically, but right now I can't make the words in my mind. Maybe I'll post again later. Something more eloquent.
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