I'm Falling Apart

I'm a mess. A complete mess. I'm so confused and I don't really know what's wrong with me. The other night I was offered drugs and I took them. Half a hydro crushed right up and taken in through my nasal cavity. It made me numb, numb to everything. And I liked. A fact I don't enjoy admitting but it's the truth, nonetheless. Now I find myself craving that numbness now but ignoring it, knowing I have responsibilities and that that isn't the kind of person I want to be. I guess that makes me strong... I'm not sure.

I think I'm spiraling downward into an abyss of complete darkness. I know I need to find myself but I don't know how. It's like I'm stuck in a room that has four walls but no door or windows. I'm slowly suffocating and I don't know how to fix it, to fix me. I'm a mess.
January 12th, 2016 at 08:47am