Getting Back Into Writing and Becoming More Active

I want to get back into writing. I really miss it. I feel bad for not writing. For a while, I've been in a kind of slump where I'll start writing a story and delete it because it isn't coming out the way I want it to. It's super frustrating and annoying. I still want to write because I still come up with ideas. I got one last night for a romance story. Might never actually write it because I don't write romances, but I still wrote down the idea. I also want to become more active on here. Maybe I should participate in contests on here. But I don't really know when members are running them. Ugh. This post probably doesn't make sense.