Advice? Questioning My Major- Again

In high school, I had good grades in all my classes. I was just as good in literature and history as I was in math and science. I was always a straight-A student. Even with my friends I'd discuss topics like philosophy and politics in our spare time.

From fifth grade, I liked math, too. But eventually I started to dislike it my sophomore year of high school because of crappy teachers. However, once I moved to a new school, I started to get a stronger interest in my calculus classes. I almost ended up enjoying calculus more than my English classes.

But I could never imagine myself majoring in anything STEM-related. So when I got into college, I joined as political science. Since I'm big on politics and social issues, I thought it'd be perfect for me.

My first poli-sci related class in university—your basic U.S. national government class—was horrible, however My teacher was a bore, cancelling class at least once or twice a week. When I read from my textbook, I felt like my mind simply wasn't grasping any of the concepts I was reading.

And I loved my statistics class.

So I looked up different careers with math involved, and I found engineering.

After many weeks of deliberation, I decided to switch to mechanical engineering.

Now it's my second semester of university, and my first semester as a female engineering major. I like my trigonometry class. I like my General Chem class, too. But I feel horrible nonetheless. I feel empty. The same unsatisfied feeling from last semester.

I can't help but miss discussing ideas. Ideas related to society, and government, and human rights, and whatnot. Particles, triangles, and numbers are interesting, there's no doubt about it. But I feel empty.

I have my first engineering project (building a tower out of drinking straws) already for my basic engineering class. The project only gives me anxiety, not excitement. I've never had that innate skill of being able to build things. Buildings towers. Buildings robots. Coding. I only liked math.

Now, I can't help but feel like I don't belong under this major. When I left political science, I had silently promised to myself that I wouldn't return to studying liberal arts. But I miss it. It's ridiculous.

I really don't know what to do. Never in my life have I felt so undecided.