If Ever

If I ever get married again or Remarry my husband, I hope I can do it nice and big... If It ever happens I hope I get a huge surprise proposal... An engagement party... I want a big wedding... With an awesome reception... And true love... A Christ centered marriage... Truth, trust, caring... I want all the things your supposed to have in a marriage., all the things I never had my marriage . I want it to be real this time. I want to be loved. My husband has so many issues... He's just so not real. I don't know why he married me.. It darn sure wasn't because he loved me