What is wrong with me?

I dont get it. i dont understand myself, but I dont know why. Like I dont know who I am. I feel like I have to be something so everyone else can like me, but i hate it. Im just so confused about myself. I dont even understand why Im on this earth. I starting to think there isint even a reason and I just was put here to waste a life. Music isint even like a therapy for me anymore. I really think I need one and my mom wont listen. this sucks. I hate being confused. Everything is all crazy and i just dont get it anymore.