Mute

Have you ever felt helpless?
Have ever felt that you can't turn to the people around you?
Do you get that feeling of them wanting to help you, but not?
I've felt that way.
Have you tried so hard at covering something up, that it really goes unnoticed?
I wanted to be noticed.
I wanted someone to say, 'hey, you're not okay.'
But they didn't.
They kept pushing. Telling me, that I will be okay.
Maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm unhappy. Maybe life gave me a bad hand and I wanted to pull out.
Could no one see that I wanted out.
I wanted to stop.
For once I wanted to have my own say. My own voice, but I was put on mute.
No one gave a shit. No one cared that I was going this major depressive episode and I needed help.
No one heard me cry. No one helped me pick up the pieces.