Done

I can't continue on with this much hate in my heart. Im sick of hating everyone and everything and being totally angry and depressed etc all the fucking time. It's not worth it! It's not changing anything

Yeah it feels a lot easier to just allow myself to hate everything because I can see right through it, but it's fucking killing me

I'm just going to be myself, uplift myself. Unapologetically express myself. And not expect anything out of anyone else! Expecting something and being disappointed doesn't make anything happen, it only means disappointment

I don't need it. All I need is to be true and to do what I want. I don't need to wallow in the mud, desperately waiting for things to go right somehow.

It's a magical thing, it really is and I mean that literally

I have to have the magical attitude of self confidence, optimism and blind faith if I wanna survive in this world

I'm done expecting things out of people who don't wanna give me shit. If something doesn't happen, it wasn't meant to happen and one day something better will come along and I'll be glad it didn't. I just have to accept that

So that's it, I'm letting go. I'm unlocking myself from the handcuffs I put around my wrists. I'm not afraid of the house of cards falling down anymore because I'm not happy anyway