New Normal?

It has been one week and a day since I said goodbye to my beautiful mother and now it seems like I have to get back to regular life once again. I'm trying to make sense of everything and this has been the worst week so far. Everyone is telling me to find the new normal but I have no clue what that means. I returned to work yesterday and all I could think about was that I wouldn't be getting anymore calls from my mom there letting me know she was okay or asking how my night was going. She wouldn't be calling me at closing time to see how long I would be. How do you find the new normal when you lose a part of your life like that? I feel like I'm barely keeping it together as I search for a routine that fits me now. I was helping take care of her in her final days and my entire routine was help mom, work and come home to sleep. I'm back to writing to try and help me get to a better place and I hope it helps. Please bear with me as I move towards what will be my new normal.