4 Weeks

It's been 4 weeks since my best friend died. It's been hard and grieving is weird, but I'm not letting myself dwell too much on it. I've been in and out of the anger phase of grieving, and last night was definitely one of those moments.

I didn't want to talk to anyone. I didn't really want to do anything. I just wanted to talk to her.

I tried writing a poem/song but it's all so surface. I can't let myself fully delve into the pain, I'm too afraid of how consuming it is.

We still don't have the autopsy report, and honestly I've decided that I don't want to know.

On a different note, today was so bland. I haven't really done anything. But I did talk to one of my best friends and I'm so happy that she's finally in a better place and away from her ex boyfriend. They weren't good for each other and she tried so hard to make it work.

I don't know.

1. How are you doing?
2. What'd you do today?
3. Read anything good lately?