So things are complicated with my ex right now. We hung out a few weekends ago, and we ended up kissing and....stuff. I went over his house after work one night, and we slept together. We keep telling each other we love each other. I just don't know. It doesn't feel like we aren't broken up...but we are? That's why I say things are complicated right now.
He is picking me up soon and I'm spending the night. I will ask him tonight what we are. I refuse to be a friend with benefit. I still love him very much...
What's the problem with me spending the night? My Dad doesn't know I'm going. I didn't tell him because I knew he wouldn't be happy with that. I'm 23 years old, I don't need to ask you to do sh*t. I understand I'm living in your house, your rules, but I'm an adult? I at least told my mom, and she said it was fine. So I'll just roll with that.
Am I still going to go with my ex? Yes.
I am totally prepared to get screamed at tomorrow night when I come home. But I want to spend one night with someone I love and miss.