Just a Little Motivation

Lately, and by lately I mean like idk 2-3 months, I've been feeling really unmotivated to do anything. The things I was so passionate about just kind of faded away and I can't pinpoint why. Maybe cos I just feel like nothing I do is going to be worth something in the long run. I don't know why I want people to notice my hard work, but than again I'm sure a lot of people feel that way, it's just something we long for, the feeling of being worth something, and honestly I don't feel that way anymore.

When I started writing my abduction story, I was in a much better place than I am now. I was writing almost everyday, and I actually managed to FINISH the story, which amazes me still, cos I don't usually finish writing anything, it either gets boring or I find something better to write about, but I finished it and I'm proud of that.

I was also working out like everyday so I could lose weight, cos that was a problem I always had, and everyday for a solid 2 months I was walking 3 times a day and I worked out for 30 minutes a day, doing exercises I never knew I could do, I motivated myself, than for whatever reason shit changed.

Maybe I wasn't seeing the progress quick enough. Well, not maybe, definitely wasn't seeing it. It bummed me out but I knew things like that took a lot of time, and I put in a lot of patience, but sooner or later I just kind of gave up.

As for story writing, well I really wanna write again. After my first story I published here. (The Abduction of Regan Emmett, btw. ;) ), I began writing another story, but it stopped being interesting, because I wanna write something I know people would enjoy, but it didn't seem too enjoyable so I deleted it. I'm a horror writer, it is easier for me to write about blood and guts, than write a comedy, or a drama, I was always good at horror, that's what intrigues me.

I wanna get motivated again, and I know I will eventually, but it takes time. Maybe I need a little push, someone to tell me that things will work out, I don't have many friends or people to count on when things go wrong in my life, but I know everything will be ok in the end, I won't give up. I'll get there, it'll just take me a little longer to get there, ya know?

Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble, I don't normally write blogs cos I never know what to talk about. But It feels good to ramble. Haha.

Have a great day guys xx