Give Me Therapy

I'd like to say that i'm not dead, but as of lately that's how i feel. I've been in this slump of depression lately and it just doesn't seem to want to go away. My sex life is a joke, my relationship is one hell of a roller coaster ride. i'm just sick of being nagged about this and that. I just want to be happy but i'm not sure what that is anymore. i've been feeling hella unwanted lately and it sucks. and talking to my boyfriend doesn't help because he gets ridiculously defensive over shit. So explaining my feelings to him is a lost cause. So i bottle it up inside which is not helping at all. so i'm going to try to get a therapist because I think that would help me so much.

Men are annoying at times and I just can't stand them. I haven't been writing lately because my funk has just been overwhelming. So as of right now, I have no inspiration for anything but reading and youtube. I've also been distracting my mind with games on my phone so that definitely helps. I'm just at my breaking point and not sure what to do anymore.