Spiralling Down

Do you know that feeling when you're surrounded by people and you still feel alone?

Do you know that feeling when you're laughing and joking but you still feel empty at the same time?

Do you know that feeling when you try to do things that usually make you happy and you feel... almost nothing? The joy is short-lived.

I can feel myself slipping into old habits but I just... I can't stop.

I don't want to leave permanents scars on my body anymore.

Punching a wall and feeling my knuckles crack.

At least I feel the pain.

I've been so numb for so long!

A panel doctor wrote me a recommendation letter to see a psychiatrist.

I'm scared to make the appointment.

I'm sick of my life.

I'm done.
May 14th, 2019 at 03:41pm