i've come to a realization; i've had an epiphany.

so, i was really hung up on my ex.
but, you know what?
i don't need him.
that's what i've decided.
i don't need anyone that i haven't already got.
and if he just wants to be friends,
then fine, we're just friends.
i miss him,
and i'll probably miss him for a while.
but we aren't getting back together, and i've come to that realization now.
and i'll just have to deal with that.

also.

i had an epiphany during biology class today.

i thought about what a waste that class was.
[even though it's AP.]
i just thought,
wait,
it won't be a waste.
i've already learned a lot of things that i didn't know before.
and then,
i applied this theory to life.
we can't waste the time that we have here.
so many people are doing it,
blowing their time on useless things.
we're sent here for a reason.
we only have this one chance.
why not learn while we still can?
why waste this time on stupid things, on being depressed, on hurting ourselves.
granted,
i've made stupid decisions,
i've been depressed,
i've hurt myself. [even in the most literal terms.]
but.
we have this great opportunity to get all of this experience, to try all these different things, to learn all about this crazy, ridiculous, confusing, impossible, amazing world.
why blow it on lame stuff?
LIVE LIFE.
don't ask why.
ask why not?

that's my inspirational message for the evening.
have a good night,
have a great life.

i love you,
and there's at least one other person out there who does, too.
=]

[xx]