Thoughts

I feel like being alone with your thoughts is a dangerous game to play. I struggle with anxiety and depression as is and lately it just feels like it's getting worse. I have been with this new guy for a few months now and I just don't know how to feel or what to do anymore. I just feel like that I'm not good enough or never will be. I know that things with his ex are over and they are getting divorced and blah blah blah, but I feel like there are a lot of secrets and I don't know how to handle it anymore. It's honestly probably just my head trying to convince me otherwise but I'm just mentally and physically drained at this point.

I want to sit down with him and talk to him this weekend. I don't know if I can handle everything that's going on. Mentally, it's eating me alive and I don't want to feel this way anymore. Life just continues to throw curveballs at me and I am so beyond drained.

I wasn't going to share this on here, but I'm alone, have no friends and this seems to be my safe space. I just hope things will get better because I'm about to go insane.