People

Why do they ask about my problems and feelings and things?
I mean, they're not their problems and feelings, it's beyond me why they're even interested.
When I say something, even about myself, they'll just tell me I'm wrong.
I am, whatever I say I am.
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
Yeah, the last part was Eminem. That's pretty uncharacteristic of me. To site rappers and all.
They assume they know what's going on. They don't.
They tell me I lie too much. They don't want to know.
If you don't want me to say how I honestly feel,
don't fucking ask.
But I can't really tell anyone, anything.
I'm to young to feel this,
and I'm not mature in enough to understand this.
If I think I might be in love, then it MUST just be a crush.
If I feel like cutting, I'm just having "an off day."
Why can't they just stop it?
I'm consantly second guessing my own feelings.
I once told my mom she made me feel stupid, and she sat there for an hour cmoparing my problems to hers.
I just want to rip my hair out and bleed and scream and run away.
Last night, I sat downstairs while my mother yelled at me, digging my nails into my hands because I couldn't go upstairs and do anything about it.
There's no where I can go to do anything about it.
I don't want to stay here.
I don't want to go to my dad's.
The last place in the world I felt like I could go, and just not worry about it is gone.
I need something.
I don't know wnhat.
But I need it desperately.
Because I fear that I might break,
and I fear that I can't take it.