Again I am lost and I don't know where to begin or what to say.
I want him so much.
I want him to leave me alone soooo much.
I had the best dream about him last night.
And then fell for someone I used to like later today.
I've had so many heart to hearts today.
On the bus home I sat and cried and just wanted to start EVERYTHING again. Too many drugs...too many men...everything is too fucked up and I now want to be left alone.
My darling ex boyfriend and one of my best friends found out what happend to me in the summer and is now coming all the way from the other side of the country to murder someone.
Lets just say someone "forced" themsleves onto me at the end of August and it's trigged all this stuff that's now happened.
Now if someone can help me escape I'd be SO greatful. I can't stand it here anymore and the screaming inside is happening again.
I'm becoming attracted to all guys I meet because I miss affection.
But I'm SO scared to have a boyfriend because of what happened with the last one and the amount of fist fights we had.
Help someone?
Please?
Headache
November 15th, 2007 at 06:56am