I feel like crying.. depressed

I don't know why but I'm suddenly feeling so depressed. I think I'm having some sort of anxiety attack or something. I can't breathe. My eyes are watery right now and its weird because I haven't cried in years and its really hard for me to cry at all and now here I am breathing deeply for no apparent reason.

I think I know why but it's not the main reason why I'm feeling like this. I'm so unsure about everything that I am. Quite honestly, I'm still doubting myself if I'm a fake or am I the real me. Am I for real or has the wolrd brainwashed me and made me think like this? I don't know.

I'm not even sure why I'm sharing this. I probably sound like an effin drama queen right now but I have to let it out or else I'm going to have a real anxiety attack