Blech

I don't feel good, and my boyfriend hasn't called me. I probably will at nine, like he always does. I don't even know if I wanna talk to him right now, though. I'm still upset about him thinking holding hands is too cliche. I really don't understand it. I don't know why, but I love holding his hand. I feel closer to him. Like we're connected, even if for a moment. I feel safe, protected.
But you think I'm gonna tell him that? Hell no! What would I say?
"Hold my fucking hand!"
Psh, yeah right. What do I do? I'm really mellow right now. Ugh.