him once again!!!

so im about to give up...he stil hasnt came to see me yet and i feel like crap....i dont want to be a poor mans Debbie....i dont want him to come to me when she is done playing with him and i dont want him to come and see me after she gets tired of him once again...i feel like im being used and i probably am....he said he loves me....how could i believe that...if you read my poems you probably know that he has sent me bloody notes....yes...and hae blamed his slit wrists on me...that DOES not feel good...not at all..im so stressed right now....thank you for listening to me rant again........