I play it over and over

Love or infatuation?
I have no fucking clue what infatuation means. And I'm too lazy to look it up. So I don't know.
I haven't spoken to John in a few days. It feels like forever. And I get pissed or upset because of it. Isn't that fucking retarded? This is so stupid.
I'm listening to Taking Back Sunday and Scary Kids Scaring Kids. They're some of his favorite bands. It makes me feel a little better, but not really.
He usually calls me about this time. Psh, he might not tonight.
I don't know why, but I feel like shit.
Maybe I do know why. See, my friend Kelly wasn't supposed to live 'til Christmas. But she did. She's made it past. But that just means the end is nearing. And it sucks ass.
I'm just not in a good mood right now. Thank God I'm not a cutter anymore. Well, not really.
Don't worry. I'll be fine.
xoxo
-Anna-
December 27th, 2007 at 09:25am