From today(1-5-08) at 1:00 am

Dear Journal,
Well its almost my 17th b-day, 18 more days. I should be excited but I'm not. I'm not gonna do anything fun or exciting so why be excited about my b-day? I'm tired of having boring b-days. It sucks. For once I wanna do something fun. I guess its too much to ask for on birthday to go right. I guess I screwed myself out of that when I started homeschooling. I left everything behind because of people I hated, now look at me. Ugh. Why can't I do anything right? GOD. I hate this. I'm gonna go now. I'm getting tired.

Peace
Rachael