I'd Rather Hide in the Shadows

I really hate this feeling; the feeling that you're failing school, which then leads onto the thought that you're a failure. Yeah sure, I got DUX and 'Citizen of the Year' in Primary school, but that means nothing now!

I'm pretty sure I failed my first year, and now I fear about heading into my second. I'm scared for the fact if I drop a learning group, all the people I know and thought I was capable of higher standards, will look down on me with disappointed expressions, along with the thoughts and expectations that I could do better. And the weird thing is; I know I can do better, so why didn't I prove it in my first year which would save me now from the fear leading into this year's school experience.

If there is anyone in, or has been in this situation, please, can you give me some advise or encouragement. Muchly appreciated.