I'm so sick of this. Im done with doctors.
I hate having to go to the hospital so frequently, just let me die, or diagnose me dammit... Im terrified of hospitals and now I seem to live in them. Why can't someone just save me? All of my worst nightmares are coming true and I just want them to end.
I hate being the guinea pig, being poked at with needles and various instruments...
I just want this to be over with. I don't want everyone to keep on holding my hand and telling me everything is going to be okay, because it might not. Everything might not be okay, not this time.