Im not even half way through this yet.

I'm so sick of this. Im done with doctors.
I hate having to go to the hospital so frequently, just let me die, or diagnose me dammit... Im terrified of hospitals and now I seem to live in them. Why can't someone just save me? All of my worst nightmares are coming true and I just want them to end.
I hate being the guinea pig, being poked at with needles and various instruments...
I just want this to be over with. I don't want everyone to keep on holding my hand and telling me everything is going to be okay, because it might not. Everything might not be okay, not this time.
January 8th, 2008 at 06:40am