you can learn to love anything.

You can learn to love anything I think, if you need to badly enough. I trained myself to enjoy feeling hungry. If my stomach contracts, or I wake up feeling nauseated, or I'm light-headed, or have a hunger headache or better yet, all of the above, it means I'm getting thinner, if feels good. I feel strong, on top of myself, in control.

i know that its bad,
but i just cant help it.

i know that im not fat,
i see the proof when im on the scales,
but when im ready to go out
or i look into the mirror
i feel fat