you cant know me

to be loved, used ,abused, delt with, left hanging, destroyed, hurt, iniallated, demolished, exhasted, unsure, insecure, neglected, disrespected, misspoken, silent, misunderstood, unfortunate, sick- to- your- stomach ,heart- broken, dissapointed, worried, uprooted, looked- down- upon, underestimated, rejected- from- the- world; outcasted....unaccounted for...inimportant, not- needed, mistreated, left- behind....out- of- breath....bled- dry- of- all- sources....emotional- in- a- world- where- emotions- are- kept- secret....betrayed, unidentified, guilty.....honest, withdrawn, SCREAMING- and-SCREAMING- AND- SREEEAMIIING- just- to- be- ignored....laughed- at, stepped- upon....beaten, defeated, deflated, hated, felt- sorry- for....lied- to, cried- over, fought- over, turned- inside- out....illusional, disfunctional, so- dark, so- cold, so- unfathomable,
eduring, reassuring, brave-and-yet- stupid- and- so- confused
is to live my life in not even half of its entirelty