for lack of a catchy phrase HELP

I’m pretty sure John knows I like him.
Cause when we were on the phone, (John can read me like a book)
So here how it happened

Bold= John
Italics=Libby

“There’s something troubling you”
“No I’m fine.”
“I can tell”
“Ugh, I don’t know, I can put it into words”
“Yes you can, you just don’t want to tell me”
“No! I do want to tell you, I just don’t know how to put it into words”
“You don’t trust me.”
“No I do trust you John, a lot, You’re like my best friend.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, well my best guy friend”
*laughs*
“Why do you think we’re such good friends?”
“I don’t know, let me think about it, but don’t change the subject. What’s bugging you?”
“It’s nothing.”
“It’s never nothing.”
*sighs*
“Well write it down, and then read it too me.”
“Okay”

*Libby writes down a whole bunch of questions running through her head, conveniently located on Mibba. Com, in her journals if you would like to read them :P*

So then I read it to John and he told me what he thinks the answers to my questions were.
But the last line was like “I like him, I do, I shouldn’t, he won’t”

And John asked me what it was about, and I said I liked this guy and he wouldn’t like me back.

“Well why won’t he like you back, have you asked him”
“Well, no I mean I just started liking him”
“So you didn’t like him before?”
“Well kinda…”
“Like a brother?”
“Yeah like a brother.”
“And now you have more feelings for him?”
“Yeah, but I don’t want to, I mean I shouldn’t”
“Would you feel like your betraying a friend, if you like this guy?”
“What do you mean?”
“Like do you have a friend that likes this guy too?”
“Well yeah, but I also don’t wanna mess up our friendship.”
“Oh I see,”
“Yeah, I guess I’m just really confused.”
“Well what would you say if like tomorrow this guy came up to you and was like ‘I know you like me’”
“I’d probably faint” *laughs*
“Seriously?”
“I don’t know, I wouldn’t know unless I was in the situation. What would you do if tomorrow someone came up to you and was like John I Love You”
“I’d probably say I knew it!”
“Be serious.”
“Just kidding, honestly, I’d probably say I’d need a little time to think about it.”
“Oh I see.”
“Well do you like this guy a lot?”
“Yeah I do”
“Would you date him?”
“If he asked me, yeah.”

(right here I could SWEAR I heard John say YES! In the background, but it was probably my over active imagination)

“Why don’t you just tell him?”
“Because I don’t know”
“Yes you do.”
“Shut up John”

*then I was talking to Christina about it on msn, and she says that I should tell john, but not until I’m ready.*

“Christina says that I should tell him, when I’m ready.”
“Well are you ready.”
“No.”
“When will you be ready to tell him?”
“I don’t know”

*both sigh*

“Oh by the way, I have an answer to your question”
“Which one?” *laughs*
“Why we are such good friends.”
“Oh really what is it?”
“Because I’m Jacob Black and you’re Bella.”
*giggles* “What about Edward?”
“Fuck Edward, you’re my Bella. But Seriously, I can just be myself around you and not have to worry about what I say or what I do. I don’t have to think about what I’m saying I can just say it, I like that about you.”

Yeah so that’s more to that story.
I don’t know if he likes me.
I saw him this morning but he was late, so I didn’t get a chance to talk to him.
And his mom picked him up so I didn’t get to see him after exams,
And now I’m confused
Because John’s really oblivious sometimes.
So he either knows, or he doesn’t and he was just trying to help.

I talked to Jamie, my friend that likes him
And she says she doesn’t like him that much anyway
And She thinks we’d be cute together.