Diary of a Girl People Don't call Perfect

Dear Diary,

He hugged me again.
He opened his arms and asked for one in the hallway.
I know I'm not supposed to give him hugs.
I'm not supposed to give him anything.
He's everywhere.
I've watched three movies in a row with the name "Ryan".
He's in the halls.
He's in my dreams.
Everywhere.
But when I hug him I close my eyes and for once am happy.
I shouldn't hug him.
Especially if I'm trying to get over him.
UGH!
He thinks we can be friends and I know we really can't.
Everyone knows we can't.
We can't.