Feb. 3, 2008

I feel like I have lost a part me.

She said "the trust is gone"

It hurted me like hell. She doesn't even know how much pain that costed me. I cried myself to sleep that night. I don't even know why I'm crying over her. I mean, she's just a girl. And she's no one really special. But what if she is? All of these "what if's" just came into my mind.

-What if she's special to me and i just don't realize it?
-What if I Love Her?
-What if I'm wrong?
-What if she'll hate me and just won't talk to me if I tell her?
-What if.......

All of these thoughts are now rambling through my mind. I don't even know what to do now. I'm trapped once again.

Why is it always that it's her that makes me feel this way?

Should I just let go of this guilt and anger and move on?

How will she take it?

Will she be in the same crisis as I am?

Well, I practically blame everything on me. It was my fault. I was the one who did it. But I am sorry. And plus, I didn't know. Sorry.

I hope everything will be alright soon.