FEELINGS STRANGE SAD LITTLE BASTARDS

Okay where to start with this.....

Feelings especially mine can be pretty messed up and frustrating when you have been through what I have you get to see things no one else does and all of a sudden become and expert on it and a councillor to all of you're friends who are struggling with the same thing Weirdly enough all though people talk about their feelings it dosent all way's help I spoke about how I felt and what I thought of my self earlier on today in the middle of the o2 arena and ended up making everything worse for myself now all I can do is cry! : " (

I have been through so much and there is very little I haven't felt I've all ways felt a strange suicidal urge but what happened to me yesterday was definitely the top if my list and pushed me over the edge (I don't mind people asking about this but I hate when people spread things)
Trust is fake that's what I learned to day it dosent matter how long you have know some one they can all way turn out to be bad

Nothing is easy in the past year I've dealt with 3 deaths a murder and 8 suicide attempts 2 of which were mine

I dwell on my feelings foolishly enough but if your reading this and thinking "what the hell is this girl on about she's talking a load of bull!"
Just read this and take this on board
don't let feelings drag you down no matter how dark and demonic they are put on a fake smile to release the happy feeling and go hang out with some close friends don't sit and feel sorry for yourself it will just make you feel worse than you all ready do
I havent quite mastered that trick yet so im still working on it but to know that what I have said ha made a difference to even one persons life it would make me so happy it would be incredible.....

Its a long way up from rock bottom so stop you're self before you get to low : ) !!!!

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!