It's All About Perspective..

I don't know if I've been suffering from seasonal depression, or what, but lately Iv'e been feeling overly introspective and sensitive to other people.. Which can be a bad thing when you know a lot of dramaitc people. I havent felt this bad since I was in the 8th grade, and now it's back despite Ryan and all the happiness he's brought me..
And yet somehow today all of it went away as soon as I saw that gorgeous smile on his perfect face ^.^ I love him so much.. But some part of me has been feeling trapped, lately.. Maybe because of the year and 2 month long relationship im in.. Which makes me ecstatic.. But at the same time, im just waiting for the force in my life that likes my misery to take that happiness away from me.. So I can once again crumble to my knees and cry in the face of a problem... And this will have to be continued at a later time.. Damn timing..