I'm back but without any improvement

I still feel like shit..

More than before..

I guess I just need a place where I feel like I belong. So I ran back to Mibba.

But I'm afraid that going here again will make me feel worse

I see other people's profiles and they all have a special Mibbians that they can talk to all the time, they have a friend here who they can share all the shit they have gone through and someone who are proud of them..

Why can't I have someone like that? I tried but I stopped because everytime I feel like I was let down, I feel more and more sad...

All the filipinos in Mibba know each other, talk to each other and I feel like I'm a fucking outcast. No I'm not blaming you guys for this shit that I'm feeling...

I just feel like shit right now and I probably don't know what the hell I'm talking about